Onli Days...
Thursday, July 12, 2007,9:25 PM
nag nag nag....
Dear ^_^YES! i've cleared CMA test 2 and ECD testi'm not so confident abt the latterbut i think passing is not a problemi guess i can't reach the target of straight Ashaha...wish me luck....ok...NOW, i shall start my grumbling...first, that stupid ECD tutor, want to see our biz plannext mon....16 July...so we practically left 3 days to complete 3/4 of itdeadline was suppose to be 23 julybut she wants to see the FINAL DRAFT = THE ACTUAL THINGsianthen got the stupid 2 tests alsoso we decided to stayover at chloe's hse on fri nightto finish off...biz plan needs to discuss...so NO CHOICEcos i sat got TEN TONS then sun got WORKno TIME le.......ok, so i dragged until just now....when i think his mood is goodwhen i just say going to stayover at fren's hsehe said NO straight awayafter explaining.....also no usei said that we have no time then he repliedTHERE IS NO SUCH THING AS NO TIMEpls la....he is not STUDYING lathat's y he will say sth so STUPIDok...so i stop arguing with him straight cos it is NOT WORTHtalking to a WOODone more thinghe suggested one stupid ideahe will fetch me home at 12amthen fetch me back to chloe's hse at 6ami was like -_-then what is the pt of staying overi need to be at jurong at 830am so fetching back to her hse then i need to travel to jurongsian la.....DISCUSS SHIT LAthen i went to showerand was too angry to watch my favourite show9pm channel 8 XIN YUN XINGi don wan go out and see his faceCOLD WARgrumble to chloe abt itand thinking of solutioni think i will still go her hseuntil HE NAG MEand want to come and FETCH me homethen the next morning he say he will wake up andsend me back at 6ami make sure he does that....i just don get the logic he hasif i go chalet...he 's ok with itif i go camp...he's ok with itNOW, i;m going to a fren's hse whos is sooooooo much safercos her parents also homeso i just don get it why cannotactually, from the start i knew he will say noi thought of lying to him, saying my fren's bdae at the chaletthen we staying backbut i've decided to tell him the truthalthough i knew he will say noi still HOPE of a MIRACLEthat was why i chose a time when i believe he is in good moodwhy can't he say sth like:whoa, your tutor so bad sia....so unreasonablenvm, i fetch u go to your fren's hse, then what u wan to eat for supper will be on meWHY WHY WHYwhy can't he say sth like thathe always say SUPPORT us SUPPORT usbut when i REALLY NEED SUPPORT, he always do sth that DON SUPPORT USi don wan TALK, i wan ACTIONsian la....i think i've always been a good galnv really rebellious......i REGRET NOWi should have been rebellious TORTURE HIMtreat him so well for what......in the end NO FREEDOM, NO SUPPORT WHEN I NEEDi think i've did alot to prove that i'm a resposible personso i deserve certain FREEDOMi'm 18 years old le oki just HATE his TRADITIONAL PRINCIPLESmus be home by 11pmi always follow thati feel so weird when in the middle of sthi have to tell ppl i got curfewis like......so "lose face"cannot like, go supper with friends...then stay late alittlei think he SERIOUSLY need some COUNSELLINGto be a MORE MORDERN THINKING FATHERhe is a great manbut not a great father -- not yethe is just a good father.....it is not as if i stayover at my friends' hse all the timethis is the 1st time i'm staying over at my friend's hsenot for FUN but for SERIOUS stuffso he should AGREEif it is for FUNi will have understand if he OBJECTbut..................................................AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhate it!lowest pt of my weekSIAN....so stressi think i'm putting on more weighti eat more when i'm STRESShe should have knew thatbut i realiseall my STRESS SOURCES don come from school or workALL COME FROM HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(